start

so today is the first day of online writing. dont know why im compelled to put this online, out there but it feels like a necessary part of the transformation and who am i to question the powers of the instinct? many times I have igonored the instinct. i heard it loud and clear but didnt do as it directed. this i took as an act of self doubt. no more. the only way I can survive having a baby and becoming a kim with a baby is to follow my gut. everything about everything i do has to be done in a way I feel and know is right for the moment. Its the only way I can communicate with her and understand whats going on, to listen, watch and feel what shes got to say. its the only way I can make decisions that seem so big and I have no experience with. its the only way to resolve. when I search for information, there is too much of it. too many do this and do thats I did this and I did that. and its the only way I will be able to enjoy every second of what is a constant evolution for the both of us, for all of us. as she grows, I grow and it changes everyday, already. I refuse to spend that time in self analysis and doubt. confidence abounds..it has to. its time. praise be 33 and the uterus.

so this blog will be dedicated to my and danaë's growth. baby updates, kim updates. all mama, all the time.