monday before xmas

we were up at 5am today, baby girl slept 8 hours. this is great but the exchange is that shes up most of the day. i start back into the office on the 5th. while I'm sad by this, its an the next step in evolution for our family. we've been talking schedule and starting to get on one- a schedule promotes normalcy for us. Normal isn't at all what life was before Danaë was born(okay, love dawn and drew but cannot write by the sound of the conversational clamoring.. i cant do shit with the dredel song either..billie it is). Normal refers to the activities that comprise life and getting them accomplished but everything is more vibrant, more exciting, more energy consuming and eventful with her presence. I also want to hang out with her a ton. and so i think the return to work will be good because it creates a separation between baby and work so that when am with her, I dont have to be distracted by what I have to get done otherwise.

this conversation often goes to the bullshit of a capitalist society that does not place a priority on the woman and family but on the value we hold as a worker and commodity. the standard six weeks maternity is ludicrous and tragic. we need a year. a year for the baby to be with her family and adjust to the world shes been brought into. a year for the mother and the world to make space for the baby. its too beautiful and raw of a process to be brushed aside and shortened.

*thinking of michelle and her family*