saturday night

its seven o'clock on a Saturday night and it feels like eleven. that's what happens when you wake up at five thirty in the morning. its cool tho, i feel a bit a like a superstar crafting and yielding my magic at all sorts of crazy hours to help guide new life as it discovers its own independence. i feel like I'm doing something above what I have ever known. bigger. deeper. more beautiful. floating on top of, above but not separate from what I have been able to understand and reach. transcending. horizon line in the sky, clouds illuminated yellow fading to unthinkably bright white. glorious. the stuff orgasms and and their being a portal to the goddess are made of.

for what seems like the vast majority of people, its been a transformative kind of year; the end of the year rocking a whole lot of worlds. among those which i adore, the following activities have happened in the last twelve months: becoming a parent. a new president. people loosing jobs. babies being born. friends and loved ones passing. reconnecting with the past. engagements. divorce proceedings. unbelievable opportunities. when I look at it collectively i see that the past is presenting itself so that we can gauge our progression to this point in order to make decisions about how to proceed. the reason is that there are a good amount of us who are at a point of no return based on whatever it was we experienced recently. the experiences have been to big in stature to remain as is. change, in one way or another is happening to a lot of people right now.

its good. the purging of the old and stale. the reinvention. the discovery of a new perspective. a deeper connection to the collective. a deeper understanding of the self. new levels of trust. a layer or two shed. creation. instinct getting louder.

its either terribly exciting or caught us off guard and left us knocked down a bit. to my friends who find themselves with love and inspiration apparent congratulations on being met with what you deserve. i am moved by your happiness.

to my loved ones who are trying to understand, you will and when its over you will know something deeper and brighter that will bring you love and inspiration.

as for me, i have been blessed by the most magnificent gift of beauty i have ever seen. the transformation has been a long time coming and as i settle into the new sense of self revealed, know there is some dynamite experiences ahead and even more to know and grow by. its all for a reason which is part of a chain of reasons connected to the other chain of reasons and cosmically we all find love. that's the only way it makes sense to this mama in the making.