wtf and fears

my horoscope this week is about letting go of some fears which is interesting because I just talked about this last night with joe. Here it is,

"It's a favorable time for you to phase out at least 60 percent of your stale old fears. The cosmos is poised to assist you in this noble cause if you'll exert even a modicum of effort. What's that you say? You're afraid you can't live authentically without a hefty amount of anxieties? You secretly believe that you'd be bored if you didn't have your worries to entertain you? Well, here's an idea that might work: Simply replace your hackneyed, knee-jerk fears with a slew of silly and outlandish ones. They'll allow you to feel the friction you rely on to feel alive, but they won't bog you down with heavy stagnancy. For example, you could contract automatonophobia, the fear of ventriloquist's dummies, and apeirophobia, the fear of infinity. Other good choices might be kyphophobia, the fear of stooping, and lutraphobia, the fear of otters. "

i am feeling this is the next stage of my evolution. i guess all stages of evolution deal with shedding fears on some level. last night, i was talking in terms of professional development and the idea of contributing. of being good at something. of being recognized as being good at something. a master at a craft. Ive always done something and then moved on, getting what I needed out of it, incorporating that knowledge into perception. professionally, creatively, i dont have a thing. im not trained in one thing. i am good what I do but im self taught and there is always more to learn. but what if im not. what if its circumstances that lead to my success and that on my own, i suck. thats something harsh to say and doesn't feel too good. so, this is the fear - the fear of others catching on. but maybe its a case of being good and knowing there is room to learn, always room to learn. for me, its admitting that and feeling confident in it vs thinking its an indication of what I dont know or how inexperienced or bad i am. I just want to be talented and think that i am but that maybe it would have been different had one talent been focused and developed. maybe not. i dont know but its time to think about where I want to go, what I want to do and how. its all a choice and direction. im looking forward to the branding session in a couple of weeks with some brilliant women.