six months

I hadnt realized its been almost a month since my last post. Positivity = power in that what you put out there comes back to you. Critical thought is necessary but how it is filtered shapes how information is processed. Lately, the concepts of expression and communication have been presenting themselves. Alan said that self defense is a form of aggression and then there was Joes response to the email about blue Thursday and that Jawn pointed out it may have been aggressive as well. I think this is interesting as the question of "now what?" has presented itself in the due time we had anticipated it would. We have accomplished creating and having a baby and our life is well on its way to creating a renewed sense of normalcy. Life, I, we have changed. The way I relate to the world has changed. I feel more vulnerable. I feel more love. I feel more strength and power. I feel centered. I am still figuring this out. Its so new. A new life; at the beginning again. Possibility. No answer. The only thing to do is to feel it, explore it, grow in it and see where it takes me and us. To be attune to the experiences I have and what lies within them. How do they move me? What old habits are hanging around, needing to be shed through evolution? Fear. It leads to negativity and criticism. I have a drive now to operate on a big level of effectiveness. Its because I do now. I am guiding a life. One i created. Nothing is small about that - it has placed my effectiveness on a beautifully enormous plane and it is one I want to expand and bring inward so that I can cast it outward. Maturity and light. I love Danaë for bringing me to this place. For a renewed sense of self. Shes a special little one, full of love and light. I am so happy for us to be together. We will all do great things. She is magnificent already.