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Horoscope for week of March 19, 2009

Entomologist Justin O. Schmidt drew up an index to categorize the discomfort caused by stinging insects. The attack of the bald-faced hornet is "rich, hearty, slightly crunchy. Similar to getting your hand mashed in a revolving door." A paper wasp delivers pain that's "caustic and burning," with a "distinctly bitter aftertaste. Like spilling a beaker of hydrochloric acid on a paper cut." The sweat bee, on the other hand, can hurt you in a way that's "light, ephemeral, almost fruity. A tiny spark has singed a single hair on your arm." In bringing this to your attention, Gemini, I hope to inspire the rebel in you. Your homework is to create an equally nuanced and precise index of experiences that feel good. According to my reading of the astrological omens, you will be able to call on tremendous reserves of intelligence as you identify the numerous modes of pleasure that are available to you, and define them in exquisite detail.

1. laughing hysterically. laughter comes from a divine place, that I have been somewhere and back and when i returned the sky or air from that someplace that had settled into my lungs from when I inhaled. it was when I pushed through the fire, through the ring and eviscerated into something else - seeing and feeling, becoming powerful and deep and dark and igniting. my laughter is its bright evidence; its bright spark. yellow on the edges. white at the core.

six months

I hadnt realized its been almost a month since my last post. Positivity = power in that what you put out there comes back to you. Critical thought is necessary but how it is filtered shapes how information is processed. Lately, the concepts of expression and communication have been presenting themselves. Alan said that self defense is a form of aggression and then there was Joes response to the email about blue Thursday and that Jawn pointed out it may have been aggressive as well. I think this is interesting as the question of "now what?" has presented itself in the due time we had anticipated it would. We have accomplished creating and having a baby and our life is well on its way to creating a renewed sense of normalcy. Life, I, we have changed. The way I relate to the world has changed. I feel more vulnerable. I feel more love. I feel more strength and power. I feel centered. I am still figuring this out. Its so new. A new life; at the beginning again. Possibility. No answer. The only thing to do is to feel it, explore it, grow in it and see where it takes me and us. To be attune to the experiences I have and what lies within them. How do they move me? What old habits are hanging around, needing to be shed through evolution? Fear. It leads to negativity and criticism. I have a drive now to operate on a big level of effectiveness. Its because I do now. I am guiding a life. One i created. Nothing is small about that - it has placed my effectiveness on a beautifully enormous plane and it is one I want to expand and bring inward so that I can cast it outward. Maturity and light. I love Danaë for bringing me to this place. For a renewed sense of self. Shes a special little one, full of love and light. I am so happy for us to be together. We will all do great things. She is magnificent already.